3.24 Sorry

"I feel so awful." trying to get up.

"Hey, stay there. I'm so glad you are awake." Blair replied

"What happened?" Teddy asked.

"You need to rest." Blair tried not to meet her eye contact.

Sounding very weak, "Blair, what is going on? Please tell me."

"What do you remember, and then I will fill in the blanks?" Speaking softly to her.

"I remember going to dinner then we came back and we were all over each other. The rest is a blank." Teddy was still groggy.

"Do you remember I was feeding from you?" Blair asked with caution.

"I do, why?"

"The thing is gorgeous...I slipped and well umm your turning into a vampire now."

"This is why I feel awful?" Teddy asked weakly. Blair nodded shamefully a yes.

Teddy being weak couldn't get up but there was a slight change in her tone, "You did this to me. What about what I wanted? Did you stop and think about that Blair. I can't bear to look at you, get out and by the way your new bed is the couch."

Blair came out of the room thinking his heart was going to break. He spent many hours getting the house back in order. He was now afraid that he was losing Teddy. She had never told him to sleep on the couch before.   

He heard the bedroom door open and Teddy was staggering out. He quickly grabbed her and held her, savouring her smell, the touch of her hair.

"Blair get off me I can take care of myself."

"You can't at the moment. Please don't push me away. I didn't do this deliberately. Let me help, what do you need?" Blair begged. Teddy tried to pull away but Blair wouldn't let her go.

"I hate you Blair, I hate you!"

"Teddy I know you don't mean that. Look at me please?" She looked in to his eyes and before she could say anything he picked her up and took her towards the couch. "What are you doing Blair get off?"

"No, you need blood feed from me gorgeous." Reluctantly Teddy fed from him. After she had finished she slumped back into Blair. He savoured this moment because he wasn't sure what to expect once Teddy was a vampire.

He could see how weak she was and decided that it would be best for her to remain in bed until the change was complete. Teddy was still angry at her husband for changing her without her consent and tried to object when he carried her to the bedroom but Blair ignored her. He put her in bed and told her if she needed anything to call for him. He tried to kiss her but she growled at him.

Blair left the room but wondered if he still had a wife. As he fell back on the sofa panic set in again. He hated to see the pain she was going through and know he was the cause of her pain. He just hoped that this anger towards him wouldn't last long. He remembered how she bugged him until he smiled and how he saved her life. He couldn't let her throw it all away just because she was turning into a vampire. He decided to storm into the room and have it out with her.

"I said go away. I hate you." growling at him weakly.

"You hate me fine go ahead but know this, I love you. I know what I did was stupid and wrong but it was a mistake. I didn't even know I had turned you till Estevan told me. I thought I had killed you. I tore our home apart in grief and rage to what I thought I had done to you. So if you are still mad at me at least let it is for the right reason." Slamming the door on his way out. Teddy just lay there thinking about what he had said.

Would it be so bad being a vampire? Maybe she could get a new look. Suddenly she could feel Blair's pain and torn soul. He was telling the truth about what he had done. She felt this rush of love he had for her that was just as explosive as her own feelings for him. Teddy then started to explore her mind powers.

She saw the pressure put on Blair when he was a child. The memories of the crimes that he had committed including the murders. One thing that Blair never confided in her was where he buried Elvira or her ex but now thanks to mind reading she now knew the location. The only question Teddy was now asking was Blair letting her read his mind because of his guilt or did he have no idea that she now knew everything.

Then she heard his voice through her mind, 'Why are you concerned about him? He tried to kill you.' Before she could respond to him Blair was there in the doorway.

"I will always protect you, just let me back in please? I'm sorry."